The Emotional Deficit Cat ..
Assalamualaikum ~
Well , what do you know ? Another post about myself .. Whoppee ~ Not ..
and I'm not even gonna apologize for my long absence , just not feeling like writing anything ..
So , some of you readers may have already got the gist of this post judging by the title and the creepy expressionless image of a random anime I picked up from google image .. But for you other guys who faces difficulty in comprehending the obvious maybe due to the fact that you guys are also suffering from a psychological illness such as myself , this post is about me suffering from an emotional deficit disorder .. (Not sure if it's a real disease though ..)
Not sure when did all of this started though , I wasn't always an empty shell .. As a kid , I lived my childhood filled with abundant amount and variety of emotions and , possibly , too much emotion .. I easily laugh , I used to cry all the time , I enjoyed the littlest things , I easily get attached to something .. Be it a positive or a negative emotion , I could switch back and forth from being sad to being happy faster that a bipolar diseased patient ..
But now ? I feel empty , not sad , not emo , not lonely , just nothing ..
I remember the time when I was mad at a friend for a particular reason , as I tried to get mad at him I realized that no matter much I wanted to get angry at him regardless of the gravity of the situation , I just can't .. Not that he means anything to me , hahahaha (that's a good one Kuroneko ..)
But then I tried to get mad for NOT being able to get mad , and guess what ? I couldn't do that either .. So in the end , I just said , "Mehh , f**k it .." And just move on with my life ..
But being an emotionless robot also has it's perks , but I think I'll save that one for another time .. Having a headache right now and not sure which emotion I should choose to pretend to have that would fit in this situation ..
So ummm , goodbye , whatever .. Mehh ~
