KuroNeko's Society

 That awkward moment ....

• When you seldom smile because you don't feel like it but people think you're a arrogant snobbish anti-social jerk ..
• When you were talking to someone and realized that it was just the voice inside your head, but you kept talking to him/her/them anyway ..
• When you made plans to hang out with your friends this weekend and then suddenly remembered that you didn't have any friends ..
• When someone was talking to you and halfway through his story you realized that you didn't really care, but then you have to pretend that you were listening because you didn't want to seem rude ..
• When someone you hate did something hateful to you and you were thinking of ways to kill him and making it seems like an accident ..
• When something bad happens to someone , and everyone is emotional except you , but then you have to pretend like you're also sad to avoid offending someone ..
•  When you play too much Assassin's Creed and when you're walking behind someone you tried to assassinate him from behind using an imaginary hidden blade ..
•  When you're watching something gory on the web with other people and everyone was grossed out except you , and they asked you why aren't you disgusted ..
• When someone did something nice and unexpected to you and you're not sure how to react to that situation because you didn't get enough time to plan a good reply of gratitude ..
• When you woke up one day and realized that you hate everyone ..

I'm not sure I'm the right person to write this entry ..
Because let's face it , honesty isn't really my thing .. As most of my interaction with other human beings involves me faking a smile and striving to keep a straight face without giving sarcastic remarks , which I can HONESTLY say is a tedious and energy consuming job considering the fact that I face human stupidity on a daily basis ..

It is somewhat ironic when people spends most of their lives trying to fake theirs sincerity ..

Moving on ..
But what is SINCERITY really ?
In my limited knowledge in human virtue sincerity requires someone to be free from deceit , hypocrisy and lies in their actions and intentions .. Well that's a toughie ..
It is literally impossible for one to perform an undertaking and can be 100% certain that their actions are pure intentions without any other ulterior motives .. It's like killing germs with disinfectants products , at most you're gonna kill about 99.99% of those bastards ..

 "So why bother performing good deeds if you're not even sincere ?"
Let me answer that with another question ..
"Why bother killing those germs on your hands with hand sanitizer if you can't kill them all completely ?"
Same concept really , it's not about performing the deed and deciding whether your actions are purely on honesty .. But the very action which you took based on a clear conscious and free intentions are more than enough to prove your sincerity ..

Humans are weak , physically and mentally ..
We can't confidently say that all our intentions are pure .. There's bound to be an uncertainty and self-doubt in us .. But that's expected , the best you could do is to perform the deed and at the same time be hopeful about the sincerity of your actions .. Yeah , I know , toughie right ?

And I know this is gonna sound terribly cliché , but 'it's the thought that counts' ..